Something momentous happened in 2005ï¿½I changed my name. No, not to Gustina (although I did finally change it to Bartlett-Gustina on my driverï¿½s license after 2 years of marriage). It was a bigger change than that.
I became Duncanï¿½s Mummy.
Beyond that defining moment in July, much of the year seems a blurï¿½either an anticipatory haze of staring into the toilet bowl or down at my swelling belly, or a fog of getting used to being a diaper-changing feeding-machine pacifier-putter-inner. Human reproduction truly is a miracle. Itï¿½s a miracle we keep doing it over and over through the millennia. That said, I love being a mum. I have never been so in love as I am with my son, and with Kevin too as together we brought this blessing into being.
Lest you think that all I can do these days is babble on endlessly about Duncan, hereï¿½s the update on the other stuff in my life. (For more on Duncan and his ever-growing cuteness, read my blog at www.silandara.com/blogger.html)
The music biz pretty much ground to a halt at the end of last year. Hauling a 53-lb PA system and being pregnant didnï¿½t mix. And right now, getting a baby to sleep at night and getting up for work in the morning also doesnï¿½t blend well with the gigging lifestyle. I had a good run. I learned a lot. Itï¿½s not over, just on the back burner for now.
My quest to become an ordained minister in the Spiritualist church sometimes seems like a never-ending one. I think this is the third year Iï¿½m writing about it. Iï¿½m almost done with the coursework and, since I did my pastoral skills training last year, all that remains is a few more lessons and lots of tests to take. Hopefully this time next year, Iï¿½ll have a new story to tell.
One thing having a child is teaching me (here we go about the baby again), is that Iï¿½m willing to go out on a limb if itï¿½s in the best interest of my family. In this case, it means believing in myself enough to start freelancing fulltime (doing writing and Web) so I can stay home with Duncan. It seems like a huge leap to take, requiring a whole lot of faith and more than a small dab of courage, but one thatï¿½s definitely worth it. If you know of any good opportunities for me, please let me know.
Since this has become the ï¿½Gustina Familyï¿½ letter, itï¿½s only fair to include Kevinï¿½s news. Heï¿½s working nights at RIT in facilities management and has gone back to school. His grades are great and heï¿½s even managed to combine his love of brewing beer with classwork, creating a manual on how to brew beer at home. Itï¿½s a busy life, but heï¿½ll soon graduate with an associate of applied arts and sciences degree and then continue on to finish his bachelorï¿½s. And he makes a great Daddy. (
I hope this finds you well and happy. Go in peace this season.