Finding balance

I have the best life.

I complain a lot to my online mommy friends that I need to quit chatting and get working. Really I’m only “complaining” because I like talking to people. In an office environment, I’d spend some time talking to my co-workers about their lives and things we read in the paper and discuss what our lunch options were. I don’t have co-workers anymore. There’s a lot of things I don’t miss about that. Even the chatting sometimes, when I want to concentrate on getting that work done.

Because I love working. Specifically, I like the work I’m doing now. I feel like I’m making a difference, having positive effect on the world. I love that my clients are chiropractors, pediatricians practicing homeopathy, Adirondack meditation retreats, Reiki practitioners, new-age stores and the like. It’s totally up my alley.

I also appreciate that my “coworkers” are a couple of little people who hang out downstairs with their Daddy in the mornings. Activities include strenuous hours of play-dough creations, coloring, going outside to play basketball (thanks for the hoop, Nanny!) and some time singing and patting with Rocket and Little Einsteins.

When I’m ready for my coffee break (occurring right now), I’m greeted by Duncan yelling, “Oh! Mummy!” as I walk down the stairs. And I saw Berry roll from her back to front for the first time just now. She just turned 5 months old and I feel like I’ve been able to spend so much time with her, watching her slowly grow and change.

There are days I feel like I don’t see the kids much — when I work all morning, make lunch, put them down for naps, then back to work until the sitter gets here. Then more work until a half-hour before bath time. I get a lot of hours in some days. But it’s not every day.

And there’s still the, uh, joy of spending 2 hours in the morning (that’d be between the hours of 6 a.m. and 8 a.m.) before Kevin gets home from work. I actually enjoy the morning time we have together, even through the early morning summoning and the daily Battle of Breakfast.

Even today, when I have a cold and am having trouble concentrating, I feel like my life has a nice balance. I can breathe freely. I know things are on a positive course. And I’m surrounded by the things that are most important to me – meaningful work and family.