Iâ€™ve been meaning to write a follow-up to my last post. A couple of points:
There are things about my job that I really like. I like the work I do. I like the people I work with. I like the environment. Iâ€™m not complaining about the job. Just the fact that I have to go to it and be away from Duncan.
I have been doing more in the last 2 months than actually staring out the window. Iâ€™ve had rather productive days some days (which make me feel really good) where Iâ€™ve forged ahead and felt glad to be at work. I have had some less-than-productive days which I donâ€™t enjoy because Iâ€™d rather be busy and happy and getting stuff done and distracted with that.
Besides, my window overlooks a brick wall. And the blinds are closed now that I have to pump in my office.
No matter what Iâ€™ve been doing, Iâ€™ve been doing my best. I realize thatâ€™s not at pre-baby level sometimes. But itâ€™s the best I can do and all I can give at this particular point. I hope thatâ€™s enough.